okay,so evrybodys heard beyonces version of 'if i were a boy'.now,there's a reply song,featurin R.kelly.some parts of d lyrics r sweet,but sum r just wrong.den,it makes me think,is dis d way how men really feel??
here are d lyrics::
If I Were A Boy (Remix) (ft. R. Kelly) Lyrics

If I were a boy
even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
and throw on what I wanted and go

Drink beer with the guys
and chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
and I'd never get confronted for it
cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

(R. Kelly)
If you were a boy
then girl you'd understand
you need to stop listening to your friends
love, respect and trust your man

So I go to clubs with the guys
and sometimes flirt with the girls
I should be able to roll out
as long as Im coming home to you
and give you the world

But you are not a boy,
so you dont have a clue (ey)
How I work and pay the bills
girl and everything I do is for you (eh eh)

(Beyonce)
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a Boy (Beyonce)

If I were a Girl (Kelly)

I would turn off my phone (Beyonce)

I wouldn't play games (Kelly)

Tell everyone it's broken
so they'd think that I was sleeping alone (Beyonce)

Girl you know thats wrong (Kelly)


Id put myself first
and make the rules as I go
Cause I know that shell be faithful,
waiting for me to come home, to come home.

But you are not a boy,
so you can't understand
You are not a perfect woman
and I am not a perfect man (with me, with me)

I'd listen to her (eh eh)
Cause I know how it hurts (Kelly: and I know how you feel)
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

Kelly: Said Im sorry

It's a little too late for you to come back

but I cant let you go
cause Im too attached (Kelly)

If you thought I would wait for you
you thought wrong

But you're just a boy



>>so,wut im confused about is this particular verse,which makes dis song look like its a fight between two lovers.each trying to prove their genders better.beyonce fightin for gurls,and r kelly for d guys.its like his reasoning out,but its not what i'd like to hear.dis is d verse i mean:
(R. Kelly)
If you were a boy
then girl you'd understand
you need to stop listening to your friends:d reason we listen to friends is to stop ourself from gettin hurt.boys can just manipulate words and if we listen to them,we're definitely doomed.dey sometimes say sweet thgs but mean the total opposite,lyk almost any gurl knows,u cnt trust guys!so ur girlfrens r d source of comfort when u turn ur ear deaf to us,when we're talkin!!!
love, respect and trust your man:u know wut?its a pity u hav to say this,bcuz once a girl gives her heart,she'd give evrythg.n men just cant see what their gurls hav sacrificd,n keep takin them for granted.

So I go to clubs with the guys
and sometimes flirt with the girls:wtf???u flirt with the girls,even when u alrdy hav one?come on!how could u say u'd 'giv the world' to ur gurl if u go to the club n flirt.its a breach of trust.n trust is the key in relationships.
I should be able to roll out
as long as Im coming home to you:so,is dis trying to imply that its okay for d guys to b two-timing gurls,n messin with a girls heart.dont u just know how freakin smashd a girls heart can get,when seein her man with another girl?
and give you the world

But you are not a boy,
so you dont have a clue (ey): a clue of what?dat u just need to 'flirt' n be playful?
How I work and pay the bills:d worlds diffrent now.women work too,n sumtimes we end up payin the bills!

yes.u read the title.im in luv.least,dats wut i think for now.but dis love is different.i am,in love,with a guy,that does not treat me ryte.i dont know why.but i cant seem to let him go.y do i say he aint treatin me ryte?cuz he aint treatin me like a girl/lady.i feel awfully cheap wif him.he controls me,n i dont mind it.actually i DO mind.but,i'd do anythg for him to be with me.and so,im under his shadow.dats not how a relationship should feel lyk.i mean,yeah, he says he luvs me soo much.but smtimes it feels lyk im d only one putting in effort in our relationship.no giv and take.n last nyte,he told me,the story of 'another girl'.yeah,my heart was crushed,lyk the dummies in a crash-test operation.

so,the thing is, this guy,treats me wrong,has lots of flaws dat can b my reasons to reject him,n he was talking bout 'another girl'.and i,wut am i doin?im closin my eyes,pushing it all away,forgettin all d bad things he said,and im givin my love,freely,back to him.in fact,followin his evry orders to keep him wif me.lyk,WTF?WTF?WTF?.y cant i just let him go for gods sake!he aint d ryte one for me!!!!!but i cant let him go!this is so weird.i have never,EVER been this cheap with any guys before,but wif him;im as cheap as d last-years's stock sale.its so unlike me.

i consulted my friends.and they said he's just a playboy.askin me to get rid of him.but again,i refuse to.i nod and accept their words,but im not takin the action.its so freakin retard!how do i know if a guy is a playboy or not?and oh,did i mention,dis is a L.D.R?no,dats not an acronym for light dependent resistor.its Long Distance Relationship.so as u can see, d more im writing,d more exposed the reasons of why i should leave him.

its hard.bcuz,my luv dun come easily.and somehow,cupid struck us.dis guy has hurt and torn my heart more than he makes it flutter.yet,im still crazy for him.im wacko enough to forgive him.

last nyte,there wus 11 missd calls.all his.i only pickd up the 12th and that was the worst convsation with him evr.im fragile,i admit that.and how do u suppose i feel,when he told me about the other girl?n after tellin me abt her,he says how much he's in love with me.how i have changed him.yeah,i know,dats all d typical playboy lines.but,yeah,im swallowin it,every single letter.gulping i down,even when i can sense dat its all just lines he might have used before.huh.and i ask myself,why do i love him?
mayb its cuz,deep down,i can feel that he's being honest.smthgs telling me that he is honest abt how he feels.he says he'll still love me the same way,even if he has a new gurl.
i want him to love me.but i dont want to ruin d gurls feelings.i'd rather fly off to antartica,knowing that im the reason his new gurl is sad.
love,love,love,love,love,love.
L.O.V.E
its so deep,n faint all at d same time.

Racist,racism,racialism. These are empty words. Hollow rotten logs. its a skin without flesh. thats how void it is. no meaning, no purpose, no GOOD.

Its always the issues nowadays.skin colour.from light to dark or otherwise.black, brown, white, tanned. Or maybe its about a person's background. what part of the continent they come from or simply, what 'type' of people they are.Asians, african-american,chineese,indian and, well, u get the drill.To me, PEOPLE, means theres only one type.Homo sapiens, as in humans. The ones who breathe through nose and lungs, reproduce sexually, walk on two foot, have the same structure of double helix DNA with 23 sets of chromosomes.hmm, dat defines people enough.roughly.

Racism;showing devotion to one's race or oppression to that of another. This is far from barbaric, even animals dont show this. i think, people just use racism as a tool to blame the world. Yeah, being human, we have faults !and when we cant accept it,we wanna leave d blame on sumthing else.so, hey, presto...point ur finger to racism.

'No i cant do this, and they can do it, because of their race'. lame excuse.its not ur race that makes something happen. its urself.ur heart and determination, which clearly, are not classified by race. if Miep Gies(a dutch) can hide Anne Frank(jew), putting her life in jeopardy during the reign of the nazis, then this blatantly proves that race, is not a factor obstructing one's ability or wishes.

'oh, i hate him, cus he is ....' hating people for who they are and what their features look like is another thing. Its not the only fact that they have nothing better to do, but it shows, how much they cant tolerate themselves. They cant put up with their own selves, thats why they have to point to other's flaws for comfort. An absolute analogy is, like the detergent ads on tv. one claimed-to-be-the-best-brand against brand X. The narrator's voice keep on chanting;'Brand X is so weak, it does not make grease go, no color protector,and it stinks like a freaking cats puke. buy our brand, its better!'.
haha.pathetic*-*

and for some other piteous people, racism, is just and addictive element that serves as some point of conflict in their lives. life is just too boring for them, that clamping the racism issue under their sweaty,porous armpits is an idiosyncrasy. *pity shake of the head*

so, why do we need this?we're all people, livin in this world, tryin to figure out what the meaning of sentience is. stomping down on the walls, burning the barriers and just accepting each other for the sake of unity, will make the world a much humble compatitor to hell..(okayy..that might not sound right.=p)
anyways, at least, it will make our journey more pleasurable and...fulfillingly meaningful.

last week,we entered this spelling thingy,tried our best and alhamdulillah,got what we desreved?iguess..haha..the scene in the morning was so damn messy.havoc.manic.feverish.crazy.u name it.one thing i've learnt and will always remember(my fthr keeps tellin me about this):::
llll>murphy's law,states that,anything and everything that can go wrong,will go wrong at the last minute.
owh murphy dear,how true you are.
my otha teammates did not bring their IC or registration letter with them.and so we registerd last.luckily,wif the nice mr crew's help,we mangd to settle the problem.we took the steps on the stage and speld wif glory through the first round.my words were easy,so it wasnt quite a problem.haha..and lastly,the ever awaited segment,the break came.
i was about to throw up,out of anxiety,nervousness and insanity.but,like by chance,dis white tall,european guy came out of nowhere.he didnt come and talk to me even after i tested my *stare-and-wink-wink* method.but oh well,the sight of a cute guy can actually erase out all your vertigo/sickness..lol!okaey,this is wayy diverging from the main topic.back to my point,ehem2.
my FRENS!!!!
my frens were incredibly supportive,and thats why i luv em so much!!!!mucho,mucho tekkiero!it feels so good to jump into a pool of your friends and just be with them!!
so,if anyone wants d list of d words,i could probably try my best to comtribute,i might even make an mp3 out of it!!?haha..lol..

here i go again.
last wednesday, my class teacher put some glue on the back of two sheets of paper,then swiftly pasting it on the 'info board' in the class. 'hurrah'.10 cheers.Our test results have come out.Juz the thing to aggravate my 'oh-ever-sooo-happy'(notice the quotes sign) mood at school. i better stop typing junk and juz reveal the gist of this post.
in big huge,clear capital letters, i hereby declare that:
MY GRADES SUX.
yup,my grades stink bad.real bad.it irritates me when evryone else can just score deftly while i never seem to.maybe becuz i didnt study enuff?
hurm.here is d perfect event for me to blame the present education system.*evil laughs*>)
well,like evryone says,its too exam oriented.theres a marking scheme.evrything we mark must go in accordance to the scheme. you leave a word unwritten, there goes your mark(in sum cases).
i'd like to type more, but im just too wiped out and hav a lot of homework i SHOULD be doin.
my dear darling self,
the reason i fail is,because im frkg lazy to stdy,dont bother to try, and damn,i juz didnt giv 100%.
i do curse a lot dont i.
and finally, will i result to cheating?never ever.i dont think so.
lets stop cursing and be a goody two shoe for a minute.
im writing junk again.im so lazy to hit the backspace button and i'll continue to write junk.
-end of writing junk-
so, for the rest of the critics about malaysia's present education system, i will post it next week.hopefully i can make some time.btw,i hav to come up with a fun game for a bunch of about 50 pple, and i hav no single idea.

debate.full stop.
that week was...unthinkable, inconceivable, indescribable, incredible, unbelievable and all the crap. Livin in this east coast state of malaysia(clue;it starts with a 'k' =p) we only got to know abt the debate, roughly 7 days before the real thing. So we huffed, and puffed and debated all week long.our lovely coach gave us the motion:
1st:This house believes that the present education system prepares student for workforce.(our team as opponents)
2nd:This house would sacrifice economical growth for the environment.

The 2nd motion, was for the final stage of the debate.so, we werent revealed with what role our team would hold.We would only know after picking up draws,on the spot.My mistake was, apying too much attention on the first motion. We squandered all our time discussing the first motion. I made a hell lotta research and ended up with a 2 inch thick data on paper. All the time i had, i argued with my parents (both lecturers,and immensely supportive of malaysia's present education system). We squabbled in the car, over the dining table, and even while shoppin for groceries.
so, the ever awaited day came.the first round was ...'hampeh'.No english word can describe it.it was HAMPERGH. so, while the adjudicators were decidin i spoke to the 2nd spekr beside me,heres a piece of our conversation:
me: i think we r losin.
2nd spkr:yup, we are sooo gonna loose.
me:what are we gonna tell those girls when w e come back?urgh..soo humiliating maa!haha..at leat we tried eh?
2nd spkr:i cant bear the shame..
me:looks like its back to school for us.what period will it be by the time we reach our school back?
2nd spkr:hmm,i think we'll reach aftr recess.just in time for EST.
me:man, ihavt finishd d homework yet.shit.
while we were lame-ly discussing the state of our hw,(as a means of escapism),the judge announced the winner.
adjdicatr:the winner goes to SM****
guess what?we won.we won.
i was abot to take my coat,run out from the room and apologise to our coach for our loss.but,dang!we frking won!
a moment of elation filled the air,which was soon replaced by anxiety.
now, we had to debate out the second motion.we were on the government side. Shit. we didnt prepare much for this.1 hour of quarantine.after discussing our stand and points.i scribbled my speech. aah..the time came.in my 3rd spekr seat.trembling,only god knows, i stared at each one of my three opponets.'heck.juz laugh and bluff your way out'
d first speaker of the opposition was talkin much of what i didnt seem to understand.His keywords werent clear.so i just wrote down what i could and thought of how to rebut it. Then,my enemy 3rd speakr,sittin almost perpendicularly opposite to me, blurted out his speech. Suddenly,japan was brought into the topic.he asked me if i've ever been to japan (which he claims to be a country full of greens but still growing economically)and i was like, hell yeah i've been to japan.P.O.I, i went there when i was in form four..haha!sheer adrenaline flowd through my veins when i saw his staggered face.=p.kinda cute.*rofl* he contd:"movin on to my next point"
so,yadda,yadda,babble,babble, the debate finally ended..it was all over now. and after receivng helpful comments and tips, our coach took us on a 'road trip' to tesco before we headed back for school.

i hate dis background.
okay nabs~relax..deep breaths n count to ten.
let me giv a recap of what i went thru,startin from two weeks back.
firstly,i had dis pantomine thingy that we had to do for our teachers retirement.and so,i gathered up all my close frens as the actor.thot it would be easier since the communication barrier isn there,but oh..how wrong i was.lemme tell ya, ordering people, telling them what to do, is not as breezy as it sounds.
we were up all night,3/4 of the time wasted with..fiddlin, and idling.i went home early,and i guess without me and with time running out d pressure steamed up.

The next day,juz like 2 hours b4 the preformance, we had a last rehearsing session.we tried infront of a sample audince,n like,they didnt evn giv any reaction.i was like totally panicking.in my mind, i juz thot 'heck,bluff ur way out and juz doit.juz do it'
.laughs*in this room, i woukd like to refer as our make up room, we juz held hands and hoped for the best.i would accept and undrstand if the large 900+ audience would not give a damn or clap,i dont mind if there are cricket sounds as a result of no reaction from the audience,but plez..dont boo us or throw rotten tomatoes!!
surprisingly, as this very amature pantomine went on,the audience cheered.and they were laughing at the right scenes!haha!
it wasnt a sneeze, it wasnt a giggle,.NO. it was an uproarious clap and laughs!!!hey,they liked us after all!!yeay!!
the process wasnt all sugary spice,evrythin nice, but in the end, the outcome was indeed rewarding.
i thank the actors for staying up d whole nite n rehearsing.yup,thats our fighter spirit!!chaiyok!~
now,the bucket of tears,the pool of sweat and the endless frustration, was all,very much,worth it.

this week was frenetic.but last week was even more hectic.I so gotta learn how to like manage my time lorr...full of tears and sweat, i enjoyed both the weeks equally.each having their own string of sweet memories.Lets start off with last week.I tell you,being a director,of even a small school play is STRESSFUL!!!i dun hav the experience, however we all made our way out..
wtf!usin dis tablet sure sux
crAp

heya..im new here.Finally, after the urge of my two coaches*winks* i decided to open a blog.a place where i express my thoughts(meaning to say, EVERYTHING in my head=3) huhu..the last time i open a blog was when i was ..i dunno,ten perhaps?aa...at that young age, the frivolousity and the hazyness,i did not even know what the purpose of this b-log was...haha..!so now, i plan to dedicate about 15 minutes every weekend to update it.to increase the typing speed of my hand..to type the hecka my way out of stress...laughs*